2 international exhibitions.
In May 2016 right after I was in Milano receiving The Art and Science Award I dued ilness proclaimed a 1 1/2 year break in my international artistically career.
"Time Out" is over! ...
2 months ago I started submitting new artworks for art juries.
Therfore, I now have 4 artworks out on exhibitions.
2 of my other artworks, "Taste of Sunset" and "Weekend with Dad" (Se picture) are on a juried exhibition at Limner Gallery at Manhattan, New York, USA....... Inspiration? ... Experiences from a boat trip last year. I don' t drink alcohol, so while everybody else on board drank wine I was watching the sunset through a glas of blackcurrant syrup.
Until Dec 10th. 2017 2 Artworks, of mine, "No!1" and "No!2" are exhibited at The Museum Of New Networked Art, in Buenos Aires in Argentina. Artworks are in my "Abandoned" illustration line and they are on a show focusing on the world wide problem: Violence towards young girls and women. Inpiration? Well, I am an visual artist, so I express my self and my own experiences from earlier in life in my art.. - and I don' t have to hashtag it "meetoo" to explain anything and I don' t have a personal revenge need to hang out the persons who did it to me.
So I exhibit both my suffering and my hedonism right now.
What I didn´t expect 1 1/2 year ago was that I during the unravelling of my disease and my surgery for Primary Hyperparathyreoidims would be hit by fate again.
In August 2016, I was subjected to an accident which now almost 16 months after still prevent me from being able to eat and swallow normal food in a normal way. The muscles in my gullet and the top of my stomach are paralyzed. I can only swallow liquid food and each time I have eaten I fell like I have ran a full Marathon. My muscles in my gullet need reconvalenscence between each swallow of small servings of liquid food in order to get better, which means 1 teaspoon full food every 5 minutes through the day have to be swallowed.
I am SO tired at a time in my life where I after 20 years of illness finally expected that I could go out and enjoy being social and free of pains. Instead I now have a life where it hurt almost every time I eat, I have to spend a lot of my time finding the right healthy ingredients for my food in order not to lose weight.
I don´t know anywhere in the world, where gallerists, curators or other exhibiton planners or any artist residences or hotels serve specially created liquid food, and I also don´t expect them to. The restaurant don´t have the rigth food. The liqiuid food ingredienst are difficult to find on most exhibiition areas, and there are no real kitchens at the hotel rooms where I can create my own food. I also need at least 4-7 days travel if I should participate in my own vernisages and exhibition openings, which then for me would mean 7 days without food.
Nobody can do that, so I am deeply sorry if also very shy I disappoint somebody staying away.
August 29th 2016 I wrote a Box-Blog named: "Accident, illnes and art." The essense of that one was that I promised you to come back "stronger than ever." I am sorry, I have to disappoint you there. I am making a come back, but what I couldn´t possibly know then was that I wouldn´t even get my normally strengh and energy back as a human being. Maybe never.
Somebody kicked me started again saying:
"Your art, Lisbet, is stronger and more touching than ever, your art hit over and over again the nail in themes, and you still have your amazing inborn artistically skills. You still become better and better, you have not topped yet. You have never been the social type of person. Participating in vernissages walking around in highheeled shoes with a little glass in your hands, smalltalking and looking fabulous have never suited you. That´s not why you are creating art."
Then this greatlooking, know-all attitude, lucky, destiny spoiled person with all the right network and meanings waltzed out of the room as another diva and went out to lend lustre to her 5th vernissage/ reception that week and left me back with my frustrations and my worries about if I be nailed to a stomack tube or not in the future.
She is right, except for one thing: I would spend my last dime for being at Manhattan in New York right now if I didn´t have to take care of myself, wait for more acute exminations and physician controls and if this paralyze of my gullet didn´t control my life 100%.
She is right in one thing: I don´t create art for the receptions and travels or in order to be "on" or to be famous "be a star". I create art because I cannot help doing it, I have the abilities to create it, an right now it is protecting me from going crazy, though it is almost impossible for me to concentrate creating art when I get interrupted every 5 minutes all day long for eating small servings, and I need a high level of concentration when I create my miniature artworks using my magnifying glasses. So all of you who look down on me and critisize me for having a small art production and creating small artworks: You don´t know what it taken me to get this far.
So thank you very much to all you understanding international juries, curators and gallerists who make this artistically come back of mine possible, and thereby are supporting me in TAKING BACK MY LIFE by selecting my artworks for your shows
If you don´t participate in life, you don´t have any.